I have been with my wife for almost 4 years, I honestly have failed as a husband and abused her many times (nothing close to a beating though). This is no excuse, but she is diagnosed with depression and acute anxiety. She once admitted to me that she created fights to later manipulate me after I got aggressive. Our therapist told us that she did that because she was abused physically as a child and was the only way she knew how to cope. I have taken her to 2 doctors and she doesn't cooperate by taking her prescribed medicine for her conditions... Last week after a big mistake on my part, she had enough and left the house, put a restraining order on me for 6 months and is now staying with her family who hates me, who abused her as a child and are the most toxic people for her. We were even trying to have kids before she left and discontinued her fertility treatment. I have continued to go to the psychiatrist we shared every day as this all has been very traumatic and I want to work on my aggressiveness and get my wife back. She only went once on her own and the doctor who is the only one who has the permission from the judge to have communication told me she has not made any other appointments. He told me she was closed off and he asked her to drop the order, but she refused and told him, she needed time. I filed for divorce (even though both of us only believed in reaching that means if a party was unfaithful) as I don't see any interest in her part and 6 months without knowing anything, not even communication for so long is just too much. Now I am regretting it as I love her so much and we have been through so much together. I am willing to work on my part, go to therapy, take my meds but since I can't talk to her at all, I have no clue what to do. Everyone is telling me to move on, but my heart tells me I don't want to. I feel in my heart she hasn't given up, but in 28 days we're officially divorced and I don't know if to give her more time and cancel it, or leave it as is and move on... Update: She made an appointment with the psychiatrist for early this week.